December 2010
so
i’m pretty sure i’ve gained like a billion pounds. i’ve been eating non-stop and so much junk for the past like week. ewewwewewewwewew. i’m a fat obese cow. i can like literally feel myself gaining weight. this is so disgusting. its so hard to not do it on break ah.
i don’t know what i’m gonna do. if i go back to my diet my family will notice a difference. but...
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on vacation in miamiiii
i hooked up with this really hot guy who looked like a hotter version of edward cullen ahhh but he left:(
also, i’m totally binging but its because my friend is watching what i’m eatingg
fucking binged like no other today
i had a party in school with a shit load of just sugary vomit food
and then i had my dads office party where there was a ton of food
tomorrow i’ll be on a plane most of the day so i plan on not eating anything at all until dinner which i will not have much. fuck i feel fat. but going to miami tomorrowwwww!
for the next hour I'll answer every single one of...
poorbutpowerful:
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No one’ll do it, but okay.
I’ll do it for the rest of the night. DO NOT BE SHY
ate a disgusting amount for dinner
i want to barf
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i finally have a gap between my thighs when i put...
its small, but its there :)
intake so far
breakfast: tea (0)
lunch: frozen meal (300), venti skinny caramel machiatto (280)
total: 580
i don’t want to eat dinner.
i wonder what it feels like to have a flat stomach...
HOLY FUCK YES
i have lost 3.5 pounds in two days
and last night i saw him ahh <3
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Oooh good luck, it's going well so far!
Oooh good luck, it's going well so far!
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Oooh good luck, it's going well so far!
Oooh good luck, it's going well so far!
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rest of intake
two slices of pizza (580)
so total for today: 680
someone in my formspring just wrote how i lost a...
fook u. i haven’t gained back any.
i knew i still look fat. ugh.
horrible day
only one thing was good
my intake so far
breakfast: tea (0)
lunch: chips (100)
total: 100
i fucking binged on chocolate
i feel like once i start eating at my house i can’t stop
maybe i have a binge eating disorder. fuck why can’t i just have anorexia and be SKINNY.
that’s all i want in life right now. that and to get into a good college. i’m dead serious.
i’m pathetic.
fuck this
my family is ordering pizza for dinner. i have to have some or else they will call me out on it. my mom already asks if i eat like every other day.
i’ll just have 1 slice and some salad i guess..
i cant lie
i had a few olives and feta and a clementine so i’m gonna add on 100 calories
so a total of 400 now
intake so far
i’ve stayed on track. i’m happy. the only mistake i did was taking a few sips of coke because i thought it was diet coke but i immediately stopped and that was at most like 5 calories so no point in counting it.
intake so far:
breakfast: grande skinny caramel machiatto (110)
lunch: baked lays (130), big apple (60)
total so far: 300
ok a little over what i wanted but its because...
i'm officially back to my old habbits
i totally freaked out when i saw my weight tonight, even if it was after dinner and stuff. it was so unexceptable. also, i’m pretty sure my body hates me for eatingbecause i’ve been getting severe stomach aches to a disgusting point—enough said. this is the second day in a row. i would MUCH rather starve then feel this pain again.
tomorrow this is my meal plan
breakfast: grande...
i've gained almost 5 pounds
i really hope this is water/ food weight.
holy fuck wake up call.
10275) When I eat I wish to god I didn't and when...
intake so far
breakfast: tea (0)
lunch: fruit bowl (100), chex mix (210)
snack: 11 pretzels filled with peanut butter (140)
total so far: 360
not horrible but not great
tonight i’m gonna have a prepared meal which will be at most 300 calories
everytime i eat i regret it more and more
i think i want to limit myself to eating only dinner which will be at max 400 calories.
i fucking hate everyone i wish i was done with...
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first time posting my intake in a while
i’ve been too embarrassed because i’ve eaten so fucking much recently. today was eh.
breakfast: coffee (70)
lunch: fruit bowl (100)
snack: skinny grande vanilla latte(180), low-fat banana chocolate chip coffee cake(390)
i feel sick after that coffee cake. that has so many calories oh my god.
total so far today: 740.
thats already so much. i’ll have a frozen dinner thats...
tiny-line asked: what you just posted about the bathroom happened to me yesterday.. it all happened so fast.. wtf!!!! I felt better after tho
this is punishment
ok this is a really gross post so stop reading if you don’t like reading about bathroom stuff ahhaah
basically right now everything is coming out of me and not through my mouth. i think its my stomachs way of telling me how much of a failure i’ve been today and yesterday. i deserve it. it hurts so much to just sit hear and i wish so desperately i didn’t eat dinner. i...